My Life's Shoutout

If you know me well enough.

2011-06-28T17:06:00.004+08:00

If you know me well enough, you would know I'm not a consistent blogger. I blog when I'm too happy or too sad - which I think is a good and a bad thing. Good is that, readers (if there were any) would be able to keep up with the drama of my life (like any reality shows). Bad would be, when I look back into my life, I don't see myself living a NORMAL/AVERAGE life. Pheww! Life is just so full of drama. Anyways, life don't. There's so much of normal things that goes about in my life, currently. IE: the clock on my table is ticking every seconds like it supposed to be, the coffee is wafting its smell across my room, and the ants are slowly crawling into my sugary plate of biscuit. Yes, should I ever looked back into my life, I have to remember the part of my life that is normal. (What i mean normal here is that, I don't always do outrageous stuffs, travel to exotic countries, and party, or fall into depressed mood)

Yes, I didn't update you about my life after my 22nd entry, as promise. I know, and you have all the right to be angry of me. But you see, the world don't revolve around me. :]

Anyway, here's a picture about a Burmese girl whom I met during my last trip to Myanmar [the yellow thing on her face supposed to be some traditional herbs that reduces heat from our body - none of the Burmese people have acne!]. At the age of 3 or so, she has to help at her mom's shop to sell coconut drinks at less than RM2. What were we doing when we're 3? Crying on the crib? Snatching your brother's LEGOs? This country has really touched my heart alot during my visitation. I'd forgotten how happiness can be so simple, it seem as if, the lesser you have, the happier you are. Maybe it's time for us to be gratitude of what we have, even the smallest and littlelest things in life.

My 22nd Birthday!

2011-04-11T22:38:00.003+08:00

Finally Mel turns 22, last month. I know, I know.... I'd been neglecting this blog awhile, but you see, I'm really busy for the month of March. Alot of exciting and happy stuff happened, which I would summarize in the next entry. Back to topic, I am 22 years old this year.

Looking back, time has really passed very fast. I still remember, 10 years ago, I was wondering what my life would be ahead of me. I thought I would be a little more slender and sexy and Zhao Wei, from Hwang Zhu Ge Ge, after watching too much Ugly Duckling that I would turn into a beautiful swan. I thought I would become a doctor, doing medics in UK/US. And well, life didn't turn out as what I thought I would be. But, that doesn't mean it got worse. I'm a psychology student now and I enjoyed the course and studying at KL alot. Despite the fact that didn't become a beautiful swan, I did become a pretty duckling. I do not have distorted feature and body, which I appreciate alot. I'm leading a healthy life, blessed with many loving friends and family. All in all, I'm contend right now although I didn't grew up becoming what I thought I would 10 years back.

So, on my birthday, Yuna organized a birthday night out for me. To be honest, I was happy and glad they celebrated for me. The food was good and we went to KLPac later on to play guitar and take pictures. One thing that I felt uneasy on my birthday is that someone else is paying for my meal. :[ I'm jz not use to that weird feelings. And yeah, they gave me money as what I told them to, though small amount which I will use to fund my new camera lens.

The Basil Pasta from Plan B, Bangsar Village. Highly recommended!

Pocci, Yenny named cat. I love her adorable eyes...

The tipsy lady!

Back in hometown the next day, Mom, Ms. Yap and Yani brought me to Swiss Garden Kuantan for buffet dinner. We had lotsa fun filled with crazy dares and joke. We ate till we the place was almost close. We were so full that night that we could barely walk. But, the food was really good and I enjoyed it alot. =D

Look at the food art they have at Swiss Garden Hotel, Kuantan

Chinese New Year 2011

2011-02-12T15:14:00.003+08:00

Aside from getting fat around Chinese New Year because you can't resist the temptations of the-every-year-also-same or every-house-also-have-the-same cookies and keropok, there's so much more to talk about this auspicious CNY :D

Now, I'm here to update the happenings back in Kuantan. Laughter, Fatt Choy and Reunion was inevitable and oh.. oh... red packets.

If you think they're holding real money, then you're wrong! It's actually a money-like angpow that I bought from TTDI pasar malam during Hari Raya

Didn't receive much thou this year, cz didn't do alot of visit to friend's place. These days, when Yi Won wasn't around to initiate all those gatherings with other gangs, I rarely see them anymore. But, that doesn't mean meeting up with my old gang wasn't fun and significant at all. It was actually, the other way round! We gambled alot, laughed and joke about each other. And, I learned how to play 8+6 too!

Initially, I thought, it would be an awkward gathering since all of us has almost lost touch with each other ever since we moved on to further our studies. Though some of them do stay in touch from time to time (ie: Jin Han and CM ; the obvious SOo n Sam). However, without consciously knowing it, we clicked straight away! You could imagine Soo starts gossiping loudly, and Sam getting lost in conversation, while JH and Chuan Meng being blur and funny, and the rest laughing like nobody's business.

That could've explain why we're good buddies in the 1st place and also our personality hasn't changed (um, I'm not sure if that's a good thing).

On the Fatt Choy part, I didn't really Fatt Choy much. Few of us decided to burn the midnight oil - to play mahjong. Everyone slept very early that day, 5am. I didn't stay on with them, cz I'm a 12-o-clock-auto-shutdown person, so I died halfway, but I can still hear the mahjong clanking even while I'm dreaming. Hahaha, those people-really gangho sial!

Managed to learn some mahjong tricks from Mommy while playing. Afterall, mahjong is not 100% luck, it's about you being attentive to the cards that people discard and the stuff that people looking for. So you need kinda brain thing to become a good player.

The mahjong gurus.

And lastly, the reunion part, it wasn't as bad as mychonny's family reunion parody [watch youtube below]. My mommy didn't embarrass me in front of my cousins. My uncle didn't suggest Mommy to sell me away to China. Hahaha. Maybe it was like that for others aunties and uncle (mind you, I really heard very bad stories from my friend's aunties/uncle), but mine is good and I'm grateful to have them.

MACC Internal Affairs CNY Edition REVIEW

2011-01-29T17:27:00.005+08:00

Recently attended one of the stand-ups at PJLA in Jaya One by Douglas Lim, Kuah Jenhan and Phoon Chi Ho.
Some of the many aethetic design they have over there

Thanks to Jeun Yan, who had been posting up their spoofs on his facebook, I get to know about this event. I thought, it would be nice to have a good laugh prior to Chinese New Year.

MACC BLOOPER #1 OFFICE

MACC BLOOPER #2 4D RESULTS

MACC BLOOPER #3 COOKING

Somehow, I got to agree with MACC that most Chinese New Year advertisement are stereotyped. Stories would usually have the same plot about saddening-family-togetherness story. But we all Chinese know that New Year isn't only about all this. There are many more, it's about new beginning, a new cycle, prosperity and many more (happy stuffs).

And so the question is, why it has to only advertisements about chinese new year/any other celebrations in general deal with all these sad emotions? For an example, remember the Merdeka advertisement they show an Indian woman who fight with her Malay friend and then many years later end up finding out the friend is dead? It's Merdeka, and why it has to do with misery and death, and worst, promoting racial grief.

Don't these will eventually lead us to think that celebrations are always bad and sad. No wonder we hear our friends these days complain about how Chinese new year songs give then headaches. Tell me about classical conditioning....

Sometimes, though it's funny to laugh over, but come to think of it, it's true. They also did brought up some issues on are our racial getting more and more sensitive about the remarks from others? I'm not trying to comment about our racial issue here in Malaysia, not to mention that I don't read newspaper, but sometimes we should see things more lightly especially bad remarks for others. When you see things from the other POV, perhaps it's no longer bad, or even better - laughable. Minimize racial issues and magnify racial harmony and unity is what should leaders who believe in country peace do. But it seems it's the other way round these days, don't they? Somehow, I think politician create more of these issues than

This stand up was actually a sequel to their previous Internal Affairs last year which they claimed had almost all the tickets sold out.

Likewise, this year, all the nice seats were all taken a week prior to their show, and both Elizabeth and I ended up sitting separately.

I must tell you, though we were sitting at the side, we did enjoy every bits of the. It's witty/political/insightful and funny Kudos you trio! Look forward for more.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! MAY YOU HAVE A PROSPEROUS AND AUSPICIOUS CHINESE NEW YEAR!

You made my day!

2011-01-21T02:13:00.008+08:00

It was Thaipusam, there was barely any cars around Pusat Bandar Damansara. It was usually quiet here. Unlike the busy days, where we barely noticed the person sharing the same lift with you or sitting next to you in the bus, people happen to stop and look awhile their surroundings. It was the day where most people have no classes to rush to, no assignments to pass up. Ok, perhaps I has exaggerated that holiday, but the point is, that Thursday, was like to other Thursdays...

Since it was Thursday, while everyone (well, most) girls at my floor were still asleep, I was busy peeling potatoes and cutting pita bread. Why so irony? It was because I'd had another agenda for the day. I was going for a potluck-picnic with the monkeys! (Haha... SHould have made some bananas then.)Yenny did some marcoroni cheese and salad. While I made the hearty potato salad and pita bread. But mine has alot of leftover. Know why? Ok. Keep quiet!

Around 4pm we all left in Alden's Waja to Taman Tasik Titiwangsa. It was located not far from Help Residence. We did have a enjoyable ride and sung lots of pop songs over the radio. Once reached there, we spotted a shady place near the lake we built our nest there. I would say, it wasn't a very private place, since we're actually we're picnicking next to the lake and the jogging track. Trust me, we're just so lazy to walk further for a better spot (if there's one), so we joked over how our 'beautiful place' gonna end up become some jogger's pit stop for some pita bread/kfc.

After that, we went for some crazy shots around that place. We posed, we squatted and we jumped. But guess what, those people there are too tired (of jogging) to care about us. Hah! I did experiment some shots with Yenny and Elizabeth. Luckily they were patient with this amateur photographer who ask them to hold their pose while she fiddles with functions. Nevertheless, I did manage to get some awesome shots.

Girl power!

Meet our stunt man, Alden

We did gather later on and managed to sing some songs. But then, it RAINED. So sucky. It supposed to be the moment you get so hyped up and start jamming. Then, it rained.

But that didn't stop our spirit. We walked another 1km to a shelter and continue to sing admist the darkness. Looks a little creepy here but think back it's a little funny.

p/s: So looking forward tmr's MACC - promise to blog about it soon Night.

A Nostalgic Reunion

2011-01-17T22:46:00.005+08:00

In the midst of a random night at a famous hawker stall. Three person, sat on a round table, chit chatting, laughing like nobody's business, while everyone else were having their 'common dinner' like any other nights. Well, but at least, to the three of them, it was an uncommon night.

And we did some crazy pose too. I promised Elizabeth to filter. And I hope she wasn't too upset with this 'photographic' picture.

Kah Jun, in his 'mesmerizing' pose

Well, this picture supposed to be some failed-keep-in-your-hardrive-forever picture. But I liked how Elizabeth become: skejap ada, skejap tarak

It was a rathering/reunion/meeting whatever you may call them. It was a nostalgic one. Tonight's dinner was rather nostalgic - to me at least. Not a single momment the three of us were not crapping something stupid about present/past and future. It was like dejavu, as if we went back in time; we were sitting at Chilli's eating some overportioned burger. Look forward to have more of these gathering. One word-love it!

Finally, the Ming Tian uncle get to help us to snap a nice pic

Hey dude, still remember back then in 2009? Aww... I looked so thin here

Muka lain, tapi attitude, remain

So tht's all for today's shout. Night everyone.

p/s: thanks Elizabeth for reminding me again and again about these reunion. And Kah Jun, if you happened to read this, I think you left the letter on Elizabeth's car. This time, you may have to check her out to return you tht letter. You may not wanna annoy her. Or she may tear you sweetheart's sweeheart into 1000pieces.. =D

MIA

2011-01-17T15:14:00.004+08:00

It's been a super long time since I posted somthing here ady. Mainly because I'm super busy for the past few months and I was also lazy & inspirationaless to write anything here. So, I did closed this blog for awhile. Sorry if you happened to drop by to check me out and realized you're 'not authorized' to view the content.

:D

Prior to this new post, I did noticed I grew alot since my last post, in terms of thinking and quality of friendship. Thou I would look back and laugh at how emotional/stupid myself is, I do think all these are part of my learning process and accept who I am in the past. There're things I regret saying/doing but I still accept tht for being part of myself. It's only by learning from the past and applying in future will make oneself grow and be mature.

Recently, I'd also joined the DSLR-wave bandwagon because my Olympus has began not working properly eversince my trip to Austrillia. Mom has brought me one (after much much of persuasion), I was granted one. My very own Canon EOS Rebel TX1-Kiss 550D. Fuiyoh. Even the camera's name is longer than mine. Maybe I'll give my review about this camera sometime later.

I also have been browsing many of these photography tutorial website. Learnt alot about photography these days, like overexposure/ISO/f-stops (which once sounded so Greek to me). But after some reading and practicing, tadaaa! My very first bokeh experiment.

Think it's aesthetic? How to do it? Simple! Just set your camera's aperture level to the

lowest amount. Manually focus your camera (swipe the AF tab to MF) and snap! FYI: you may also need a tripod to avoid camra shake. For more info, click here, this website provide pretty much comprehensive info about bokeh.

And so, now I'm back again to update you about myself from time to time.... and this time, I promise with more pictures and fun stuffs!

Grrrrr!

2010-09-27T22:46:00.002+08:00

Super damned angry at someone right now. Wished this person would come over and apologize! Damn. Come into my room to ask my opinion and then dashed out sulking your damn face. That was fucking no manners and rude. I mean, wtf man. I'm having bad migrain, I still have you come over to talk about your fucking discussion (which by the way, you shud figure it out with the person)! And I still have to 'layan' you like i got no better things to do. Fuck!

Then I was being treated like a beggar by this damn taxi operator. Fuck. WHat's going on with this damn world?!!!!!!!!#$%^*()_

Luckily, I have this blog. To spit my anger.

Friends friends friends.

2010-09-22T10:53:00.002+08:00

Mood: Anger & Frustration

There are many degree of friends in which you would meet in life. I personally divides my friends into few categories.

a. Hi-bye friend
b. Crap friend
c. Good friend

Based on the self-explanatory names, you would have guessed it right, that good friends are my closest friend and hi-bye friend would be the least - sometimes, I don't even know their names right. Crap friend would be friend that you know you would wanna talk lame things with, but not spending sad moments together. Therefore, this kinda friend ussually you would have less emotional ties with.

But the friend I wanna talk most would be good friend. I have very little good friend, simply because I'm picky with friends and I'd like to keep a small group of friends. These friends are usually individuals or come in pairs (very rare). Just to name some of my friends that fall on these categories are Elizabeth, Yuna, Hasha, etc. These girls are friends that I treasure most. Each of them have the qualities that I admire. For example, Elizabeth is bubbly and spontaneous, and Yuna I admire her true and kind heart for friend. But one common quality that my these good friends that I like most is being caring of people around them. You can see how concern they are when they know you're in trouble.

I still remember Hasha skipped half of her classes that day when I'd lost my purse. How Elizabeth spent hours and hours with me lamenting about another friend of mine. And Yuna standing by my side in face of a villainous friend. To me, they are not only good friend and true friend of mine.

Having said that, friends that I despised most are friends that betrayed me and constantly seek to embarrass or put me down. Sounds familiar? Of course it does (well to me at least), and they still self proclaim that you were their best friend. Omigosh.... how did this person get this term from? I wonder how this person define best friend. Unlike this person, to me, a close friend is somewhat similar to my family member. I would take care them as much as I could. Tell me about walking the miles for their own sake! And ... and this person is soooooooooOooOoOooo (okay i have to really emphasize on this) EGO. Is always about this person! How 'this person' feels, how 'this person' thinks. Is always about themselve. Don't these people think too much of themselves??? HELLLO! YOU SERIOUSLY HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO TAKE CARE OTHERS. OTHERWISE JUST GO AND DIE WITH YOUR OWN SHITTY EGO!!!!

To me... I tend to put down my mask when I deal with my close friend. That's called true. If it's always about you, why don't you just be-friend yourself? SUCKER!

Yuna, Elizabeth, Hasha, Yiwon, Phuong, Yenny - these are all my assets that I'm super proud of. They has been with me through thick and thin....
Thus, a note to you and myself. A friend is indeed a friend in need.

Men, how to secure your love to a lady

2010-06-29T16:58:00.003+08:00

I always find that guys are not sure how to express their love to their lady. There's once I overheard some guys saying that women are contradictory. At one sec, the say it's okay for him to go out, and the next she got angry over him going out with his friends till late night. Sometimes, she wants independence, and when he gave her independence, she thinks he didn't care much about her. Women are such a contradictory animal huh? Yes, we are. I admit that, cz sometimes, even we ourselves don't know what we want. Tell me about moderation. You'll never reach the equilibrium point. You would always fall on either extreme. Yeah.

But I just realize recently, actually what women wants needed most from their men. Well, at least women for the circle of women that I knew.. what they want most is the reassurance from men. Dear men nation, you have to understand, women does compare- more often and about more things than men does. Even as simple as walking past a hot sexy lady would lower her self-esteem like crazy. Simply giving reassurance to her that you would love her the way she is, would boost her confidence in the current relationship and thus decrease her fickled decision about what she wants. Simple gestures like holding her hands, kissing her forehead or giving her flowers once a while would be more than enough to show your love to her.

I don't know, that's what I think what women want most. If you realize your women acts/dress recently, you may perhaps want to secure her in this manner. By that way, she would be less 'clingy' and feel confident about you going out without her and also her position in your heart. If I would have a partner, I don't constantly want assurance from him like everyday - which is too much. But well, once a while, to feel that you're appreciated is what I would want from my man. Even like those simple gestures, or preparing meals or giving a small lovely note is enough to make my day wonderful.

Well, men.. I hope you would read this and understand it. Even you're the coolest, cutest, hottest, or richest man in the world, should you not give any assurance to your lady, she may not have open her heart to you much.

Shhh... Just keep this between us okay?

2010-06-21T22:25:00.002+08:00

Someone actually sended porridge to me this morning in my room doorstep. I was really breally touched. I mean yeahh.. I didn't expect anyone would have cared about me when I'm sick (oh cozz... except my lovely mom) but aside her, generally no people does.

I still remember how fustrated and agitated I am last night. Thinking of how inconsiderate my friend was - to expect me to make him feel better for my sickness. I mean, tht time I was like WHAT THE FUCK? (sorry... no better words can explain how angry I am tht time :C ) Like I'm the victim now. I am the patient. And you expect me to make you feel better by telling you.... it wasn't yr fault la.. blablabla. Not that I didn't explained how I got contacted this illnesses earlier. Omigosh. I was so angry tht I literally not feeling to talk to him at tht moment. I still remember how I shouted (okay... I mean sigh loudly) in my room yesterday... re-reading the message he sent to me - trying to make sense tht does this person have some or little empathy?? Well, he did suggested to tapao some porridge to me. I declined tht offer, although I really wished I could have some porridge :( . Perhaps he was saying tht cz he felt bad or whatever, and it may not be his real intention anyway...Also, considering he doesn't have any transport.. I really doesn't wanna bother him. Plus.. I was worried tht this stupid flu thing will get contacted to him... esp we're having an important meeting the next day - where he's the chairperson...I remember i woke up in the middle of the night few times- haivng 'hot flushes'. Still very angry and fustrated about this thing.

Then it was not untill this morning... when I was half drowsy... someone sent a message to me. When I checked it. It was him. Telling me tht he had left some porridge in front of my room. When I first read tht... I actually pinched myself. I mean... is it true? Are you kidding?? I mean tht was what I wanted the other night... and here it is. A hearty porridge from a friend. I was overly excited tht I sit calmly on my bed thinking tht did I told this person tht I wanted porridge last night? Or how did he firgured it out? Aiyohhh.... Abit dazed and..... touched la. Hehe.... at least there's a friend who cares about me. :D

And because of tht, I'm feeling much better now... just abit of flu and thts all. You see.. tht's the miracle of LOVE (I meant friend's love)

P/s: I also acknowleged Y's intention for buying me liang cha and hor yan hor.... Seeing her worried face about me, and I didn't wanted to talk to her.... makes me felt a little bad. Why I don't wanna talk to her? Tht... I reserve back to myself. I would like to thanked all these people who cared about me. I really think it was a great motivation for me to heal. HEAL!!

Sick sick sick!

2010-06-20T19:18:00.002+08:00

Just got some stupid contagious flu from some gangs who doesn't use 'protection'. you know... if your whole gang got sick cz one person.... you shud know, that illness is contagious. and when you know it's contagious, wear that damn mask or don't come to school or sit farrrrrrr farrrrrrrrr away from others la! BODO! if you don't have a mask, blow a condom and put on yr head la. for fucking sick! I just hate it when people always think wearin mask is a stupid thing. It was from the stupid 'stigma' to wear mask that H1N1 outbreak was so vast recently. This people, goes to university, but mentality ? Damn low. INCONSIDERATE INCONSIDERATE INCONSIDERATE! FUCK ALL THESE PEOPLE.

Aside from releasing my damn tension bout this fucking people... was that.... wanna confess what i wanted most when i got sick. I wished that someone who cares me. Like you know.... check out bout me once a while... Like how my mom used to do... checking my tempreture when its time and make hot porridge for me and etc.like a nurse in a hospital... I tend to be a little dependent when I'm sick- so unike me huh? The reason was that I wished to know that I still worth living so when I'm sick. There's no surprise that I heal faster when I'm not sick, it eases my pain by much. *sighh* but who wants to do this kinda thingss aside from yr mom. I don't even know. BUt i hope this person will come someday....

Teardrops upon my 21st birthday gift...

2010-05-04T02:16:00.001+08:00

With teary eyes, I wrote this following entry upon receiving a Birthday gift:-

A Birthday gift was send by a friend to me today, whom I back-stabbed in front of Victoria earlier upon her meeting up with us. A friend, who has turned to a foe. Maybe it was me, maybe it was her. But misunderstandings began without speaking things up. And misunderstanding after misunderstandings causes hatred. That’s how a fragrant flower turns foul and ugly. Things has certainly got bad between us. I regretted it so much that I hated myself so much right now. For blaming her entirely. I still remember how much I talked-bad of her in front of my friends. But isn’t friend supposed to correct and forget?

Whichever way, today is the first time I cried upon receiving a gift from a friend who has turn to someone I care less about. I don’t even care to open the present until next morning initially. But, I couldn’t sleep because of the caffeine from the cola that I took in the cinema earlier, causes me to opened it, out of boredom. What I didn’t really expect to receiving from her, is a hearty gift from her. It was a card, make out of boards of chipboards, decorated nicely with wild dried flowers and wordings. I remembered how difficult for me to do Yuna’s present earlier, not to mention coming out with an idea. Her this present is certainly 10 times more difficult. I can say, she has put a lot of effort in making this present- even she would have guessed I hated her through my cool tone over the phones and facebook. It was then my mind flash-backed on my 20th birthday cake that she baked for me, the time when she listened attentively about my problems, the time when we spent most of our evenings together during our freshmen, and also the crazy-clown-crush thingy. Never once she objected my dreams. A friend who has supported me all this while and I could just say it’s fake? OH, FUCK OFF MEL! I seriously hated what I did and I felt like I just received a tight slap on my face.

Still don’t know how to confront her later, but I hope things would improve after this-though I doubted things will turn back and be the same. Should she read this blog, I hope she would forgive me, and shall both of us make our friendship on sailing again. Bon voyage!

How am I lately?

2010-04-16T23:37:00.004+08:00

It's been a while since I last blogged (as usual) ..., well, just a update for you or me what has been happenning lately is:-
1. currently busy preparing for exams
2. lookin forward to Redang trip
3. going to Austrilia in July
4. going to Vietnam in August
5. planning a trip for Boon Boon

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Seriously la dude.. Don't you think I'd been travelling excessively lately? Not to mentioned I just went to China and Bali earlier this year... KAy.... Not boasting here. But, just to say I'm quite contented. Actually, this is the kinda life that I dreamed of. To travel, to broaden my worldview, to learn and to explore....

One thing I like most about travellin is tryin the local food that. Haiz, anyone who knows me would know how crazy I am for food. Just the exotic-ness of the food could make me droollss.... Yum! Just to give you a little 'taste' of what kinda special food I tried in the past while I went travelling...

1. Babi Guiling (Bali)

Something like 'Ci cap fan' (All-Parts-of-Pork Rice). Basically, they would serve you with white rice and pork meat, pork skin, pork intestines, pork liver, pork.. (depends on individual shop... the combination are according to their styles) and not forgetting... Sambals!

2. Smelly Taufu (China)

Owh... if you tried before Smelly taufu from TARC college, that is nothing compared to this particular shop infront of the hotel I'm staying at one of the outskirts of Gauangzhou. Instead of using tau fu pok, this uncle use taufu keping to make his smellies. The taufu actually don't taste smelly (like shit) at all, but instead it has the fragance of you know when you over-fried the taufu. I believe that is how expired taufu supposed to smell like.... not the one like shit

3. Tea & Scones (Cameron Highland -BOH Plantation)

I like this place alot. It is so England, you get to enjoy their local made BOH tea and English Scones. Actually, that was the first time I ate scones, and straight away, I fell in love with it! FYI: Having evening tea has never been so pleasant than drinking tea uphill in the mountain surrounded by these tea plantation!

4. Guilin Mee (For the obvious, Guilin, China)

The mee actually has the same pattern as our laksa mee, but way more smoother. Actually when you 1st enter these shops selling their local mee, you may not like it. Cz the pickles are very smelly (to me,at least), it smelt something that is very sourish. The main reason why I love this mee so much is because you are allowed to mix your own combination of the sides. Generally, the chef only prepares the mee and the soup and some meat atop, then, you put your own favourite chilli, pickles and etc. I especially like to add in ground-nuts into it. So authentic, reminds me of the mee suah by hainan people (i think) where they also add in ground nuts and fried seaweed into their mee suah.. MMmmmM Yum!!

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I guess, thats all for now for me to share... Looking forward what Ah Pang will bring me go try to eat at Redang. Sashimi crab maybe xp

Whatever it is, life is short, live it the fullest...

And now, back to reality check. I have 6 more days to my exam. 5 days to my test. Holy tut~!

BBF Even Possible?

2010-03-23T17:01:00.005+08:00

After realizing that I;m seriously okay being single. Now pop up another problem. However, I will first explain the first statement 1st before you get too lost with my 360 degree change in my ideal thoughts of being no-boyfriend status.

Actually, even me myself couldn't decipher why. But, yeah.... the urge is simply no more and no longer there. Having a partner has not become my ultimate priority in life. Maybe its hormone, or I'd simply entered mid-life crisis, or its just learn-helplessness. Whatever, ever since I turned twenty-one this year.... I'd been thinking very less about this stuff. Good thing is, after the RIP of this damn urge, I tend to be happier and could make friends with everyone. More guy friends because you simply think less of this nonesense and more of girlfriends because you have fighting for the alpha male or so per say. =)

Okay... whichever way this is not the main dish for today, but is it possible to have an opposite-sex-friend to be your best friend? Some people say is not possible unless your that friend is homosexual or something... But, I do see some mantained their friendship pretty well.

Why I brought up this issue..... Recently Y asked me why I have never thought of F as a potential partner. Since, both of us are pretty close and so on. And after some thought, I told her that, the reason being why I never thought of him as a potential one because, I really liked him as a friend. If I ever liked him or something, I fear it would affect our friendship. You know, F has always been the guy that I'm so comfortable with talking about everything. Seriously, I don't dare to risk this. Really dare not. I wanted him to be my best friend. A friend whom I can complain about almost everything, hang around, you know.... just like same-sex-bestfriend-lah!

But, back to main question.... is this even possible? Could you ever befriend with a person without some-little 'love' thing to them. Like Y, if you asked me, do I love her? Of course I do! I do care about her alot if she felt sick. But this is totally out of question if you asked me this kinda love, is the love that relates to like homo-love. But, the case is totally different if you have a different-sex bestfriend right? Is it because a possiblity you could fall in love with him or something I seriouslly don't know. I'm superdamned confused. (FYI: If I weren't confused, I wouldn't blog about this dude).

The Thing I Have for Guys is....

2010-01-29T15:22:00.002+08:00

SMART-ness. When I say SMART, I mean the intelligence-wise smart. Guys who think before they talk, knows when to joke and be serious. bla bla bla. Generally, they look HOT even when they're not talking.

As compared to guys who only looked hot but the brain is filled with all kinds of GARBAGE AND CABBAGE, seriously.... when they stand together. The smart guy still looks HOT.

This thing about HOT guy and SMART guys.... For HOT guys... the longer you look at them the less hot they become. The reason is, as time goes by, you realize he is supergego, doesn't understand certain things, acted childishly and everything that is not smart, so to say.

However, SMART guys.. they may not look actractive in the beginning, but the wisefullness, the thoughfullness, and the things they speak and say... really makes you go... AWW.....Personally, I think smart guys are very mysterious. They have many things in their mind that you can't decipher, since they think at a higher level than the rest. So it gets more and more interesting and never bores you.

Come to think of it, SMART guys can choose to talk about serious stuff and lame stuff with you, but BRAINLESS only can crap. How is it so? They may even have problems comprehending what you/issue talking about in the first place!

By saying so, I don't mean SMART guys are not HOT guys(which are even better).... They're not mutually exclusive. Just that there is only mere overlapping area in this two set. Perhaps, HOTnSMART guys are like china pandas. Rare and very high price. They are only to be exhibited but not taken.

Okayy... whichever way... I'm not saying that HOT guys are useless. There is still many aspect I have that you will have to consider, you know, like caring, ambitiousness, understanding, hobbies and passion and many more. Just one aspect don make everything perfect. There are also many SMART guys who are WEIRD at the same time. Eg: Da Vincci, though I admire his diversity in smartness... I may have problem simply to understand him. Like how he sees certain things..

This is simply just my thing. I easily fall for guys who are smart, even they are NOT HOT. I don't know... just makes me aroused so much that I could not do anything. Okay, many aroused is too vulgar. Let just say... they simple attracts me.

How did I realize that? I spoke to some of my close friends, that I find this and this guys is hot, they just look at me one kind and told me that they very worried of me. :(
Different preference. That explains all

Resign for something more meaningful...
Mel, you loved.

n

Pink Victoria

2009-12-16T18:57:00.000+08:00

I had dream yesterday. Two weird one. Because I usually would forget what I dreamt about. Or it’s just about some mundane summary of my life. Like, you know a daily report what I did that day which would either make me more proud (because I had a life) or guilty (cz I don’t have a life). So. Yeah… yesterday… was even eventful because I ussually don’t have TWO weird dream at the same day; not to mention it seldom happens. These dreams just got so stuck up in my brain that has been causing me to have silly giggles when I was doing my exam, washing my clothes or walking.

EVENT 1: I SAW VIC MAKING OUT WITH A GUY IN THE LIBRARY.
Well, I kinda see this guy before. Many times in class, but I don’t really know his name. But that’s not important. Maybe the dream wants to tell me he has a boner with vic very long. Huh? So why is me having this dream??? Ah well…. Maybe I’m the messenger or what. Lol!! At second thought…. perhaps there’s many things I’m not very sure about Victoria. You know…. Like sometimes… she’s like a nerd and then the next moment a wild dancer. I’m not saying that nerd people can’t become wild dancer. But I just feel it’s a very paradoxical stuff... So to say.But the funniest part is that the guy’s errection is a little ‘weird’ too…. You know… the boner I saw in my dream is first in vector format. (Hey! That explains how little I know about men’s penis and I don’t watch porn *blush*) LMAO! And the erection erected through his elastic green jeans. I wonder what those Freudians will think I’m thinking. Go green pornography? Sweat.

EVENT 2: I HAVE A BOYFRIEND
Okay. It’s just in my dream. Okay… this one I understand quite well la. I know I’m too desperate for one. I was practically hugging him like crazy, smooching him, sitting on his lap, blablabla. I wonder I would really do that stuff if I have one. In that dream, you know like how a pig was set free and then come to a place where there’s many shit? Oh man. I was like eating like a pig. It was so wonderful that I want to have another such wonderful dream. However, the bad thing is, I can’t really see how the guy looked like. What I could see is that he has a pimple on his lower lip. Any idea who the heck this person is? Hey!! It could be this ‘weird guy’ invaded my dream.
FEEL FREE TO INTERPRET MY DREAM IN YOU-IAN WAY. LEMME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT IT.
-MEL

I would have fall for you if I weren't in love with someone

2009-12-13T20:09:00.003+08:00

A sentence that a guy throws to me this afternoon after helping him out transporting the un-used table to another friend's house in section 17. Lol. Perhaps, he said it out of gratitude rather than he really meant it. But, whichever way.... it still felt good to me. I mean, at least I weren't unloveable considering my not-so-attractive outlook. I still have a place in the market. Therefore, i shouldn't be so desperate. Because I'M LOVABLE I'M LOVABLE!!!

p/s: i am wondering what's wrong with me. I'm not preparing for my exams. Man, i just got too confident with my results.

I wanna forget you

2009-11-26T11:44:00.002+08:00

Each time, I wanna forget about you, why hope appears? I seemed like as if you know I'm trying my very best to forget you? And you, the devil unconciously luring me fall back to my previous state again. Or is it my subconcious simply doesn't want to forget about you? I don't know. I seem to be psychologically fighting between myself.

Sometimes, I think as if you're too coward to walk toward the stage and save this injured ballerina infront of the crowd. What are you afraid of? The crowd's evaluation or the rejection from the ballerina? You this indecisive and ego person. Really makes me really fustrated. Why don't you think in another way? You may be seen as a hero and received standing oviation from the crowd. And the ballerina will happily fall into your arms?

Sometimes, I would contradict myself. I keep reminding myself. This is one sided love. Is what you think. IS what you believe that he likes you. You're just too desperate to see anyone to fall in love with. Perhaps. Perhaps, I'm really an idiot. Baka-desu! Perhaps I'm the patheticly-injured-ballerina whom longingly waiting for the never return prince.

Prince, if at any chance you read this blog. Please be more courageous to step forward and do what you fear not to do. Be courageous. No girls admires guys cowardice.

Ah.... in the end. I guess. Maybe I've been thinking too much. I should forget you and stop waiting.

Perhaps, its actually a dreaming ballerina fantasy.

You think academic is all? No.

2009-11-22T18:41:00.003+08:00

Somehow, if i were to receive a report card about my own life. I think, I would score badly in everything except my academic. I realize many of my friends are envy of my good results in university. But, I would answer them.... "so what? i envy you more". Yes, they are perhaps better than me in dealing with other thing besides education-wise. Ever since my internship during my hols last semester. I think my social skills suck. Really suck. What's the point of having good result when you can't apply what you learn?

Many people thrive to get good results in exam. They simply study very very hard at one point and forget about everything the minute after exam. They forget the meaning of exam is actually to test how well we understand a material and not how well did we do last night crash studying the materials. I'm not criticizing anyone here. I'm one of them too. Remember cathode is negative or positive side of a component? Err... (you see).

But that's not the point of the topic today. What to say here is.... academic is not so important after all. How often to you apply what you learn in school; that's the point here. Otherwise, what's the difference you and the 'aunty' walking down the street buying groceries? Oh yes, you wore a square hat before. That's all.

Realizing education knowledge is so prone to be forgotten and not applied in our daily life. I seem so meaningless to me now. Knowing what I remembered now, will be forgoten in future anyway. So what's the point of studying so much? Since it wouldn't guarantee you much in future.

One skill that seem to be more important. Is something like a warranty pass to you to be successful in future. When this skill is learnt well, definitely you be a well like, successful person wherever you go. Social skill. Sounds easy but its not. Is a skill you learn to deal with people issue. I realize this is the skill that even an illiterate person would need to learn. If you're graduate, but you do not know how to interact with others well, so sorry, the upcoming position goes to the aunty from pasar who have richer people skill than you.

When you have high social skill, you win knowledge and power. You earn respect, people are willing to teach and share with you, you have more friends and maybe "fans". But if you don't have that so sorry, "Next please!"

SO COINCIDENCE. I JUST READ THIS NOTE IN MY MAILBOX. HOWEVER, WHAT I WANT TO FOCUS HERE IS NOT TO BLAME OUR COUNTRY'S EDUCATION SYSTEM. BUT OUR STUDENTS MENTALITY HERE. CHECK IT OUT

17 A's student failed 2nd-year university exam

"The roots of true achievement lie in the will to become the best that you can become...."

The Failure of Nur Who Scored 17 A's!

I was really shocked and speechless to be informed about Nur Amalina Che Bakri.

Nur Amalina had held briefly the record of the most A's scored in the Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia. Upon the announcement of results of SPM 2004 on 26 March 2005, she received 17 1As - a record for number of A's received by a student in the history of Malaysian education back then. She was sponsored by Bank Negara Malaysia to study medicine in the United Kingdom, and did her A-levels at the Cheltenham Ladies College in the UK.

Now I am informed that she had failed her second year medical study at the University of Edinburgh. What went wrong?

Could English language be the problem? We are going back to Malay medium again and that means trouble.

Another article by Dr. Hsu

I was told that one of the girls with the most number of A's, 17 A1's, in SPM and who is currently on a scholarship in UK to study medicine failed in her second year examination.

While passing and failing examination is part and parcel of a student’s life, this case is particularly alarming, as this is supposed to be our cream of the cream. There may be other reasons why she failed , but this case typifies the trend of many of our so-called ‘top scholars’ failing in overseas universities.

I have mentioned before that among my daughter ’s year doing medicine in University of Auckland, there were many JPA's scholars (more than 10). Only one graduated with the class. The rest have failed along the way and have to repeat the year which they have failed. Some have failed one year, passed on second attempt and then failed again in another year. It is not uncommon to have someone who failed a few times along the way.

These scholars are supposed to represent the cream of our students, and yet they struggled to get through the course.

We must find out the reasons why so many of these scholars fail when they are supposed to be the our top students..

Granted that in an examination, even a good student can do badly sometimes, but to have a disproportional high failure rate among the so called top students is alarming and cannot be attributed to ‘luck’ or the lack of it. Compare this with those on their fathers’ scholarship, very few of the latter group failed.

Is it because our marking system is at fault? Is there any differential markings of papers? Is our education system at fault?

I think the time has come to have a thorough re-examination of the whole education as well as the examination system.

It really reflects badly on our country when scholarship holders fail in their examinations at an alarming rate.

P.S.. When a scholarship holder fails and has to repeat a year, it would cost the Country a lot of money which can actually be used to finance more students for study. Scholarship holders also live a life of relative luxury, compared to self-financed students, and they normally stay in the best hostels and many of them have cars and so on… SO the whole system of awarding scholarship should be reviewed too…

If the students scores an exemplary number of distinctions (A's in Malaysia) in a public exam, they are considered the pinnacle of what the Country's education system is capable of producing. They are expected to go through tertiary education anywhere in the world with flushing success. So what could possibly have happened if they fail abroad?

Malaysia's education system has always been a laughing stock. Based purely on numeric superiority and mindless rote learning methods that even the British has long abandoned decades earlier, Malaysia continues to believe that the more A's the students attain, the better equipped they are. It doesn't matter how they get the A's so long as the aim is to get them and get as many in the process. So if the students were to labour over numerous past year exam papers in the library, memorise the answers and focus only on what the teacher 'suggests' are likely to come out for the exam, that's all right by everyone. The education system doesn't teach the students to UNDERSTAND the material. It doesn't encourage proactive teaching methods that encourage students to discover knowledge but to merely be taught.

When a student with 17 Distinctions fail in the real world, it is not a surprise. Perhaps it is to many Malaysians, but it's a system that is waiting to reward its students with spectacular failure when they leave the shores and compete overseas or when they enter the workforce. Many organisations in the private sector have continued to be horrified at the performance of such students during interviews. Communication skills are absent. Standard ethics are absent. Common courtesy codes are absent. Presentation skills as well as personal grooming are absent. What has the education system taught them?

If Malaysia continue to embark on the road of plain numeric superiority instead of to challenge the students to think, provoke them to create their own opinions and to communicate expressively, to eloquently define their standing in the world, there can never be an international leader in any field or industry emanating from Malaysia. It never produced one in the last 20 years. It never will for the next 100 years.

-Mel

The Cry of Whispers

2009-10-09T22:23:00.002+08:00

Through the squared glass
I can hear various lives pass by
They are people who sang and laughed all along
They are people who whined and sigh
And also whispers.
Whispers of them which I take most attention on
It unveils who they really are, what they really wants
How much they wish another would know
What they really want.
It was the whispers that we dared to speak out loud
But why?
It was a million dollar question
Perhaps is the rule of contemporary society
Not whisper what we whispered
Whispers remained silent –
Like it always does.

I M FREAKING FULL

2009-10-07T23:05:00.003+08:00

Don't know what's wrong with me recently...... I just don't know why I'm so-craving for food and so-lazy to gym.... Die. Confirm case. Fatty boom boom guaranteed!

Shit la.... All my effort in loosing weight over the years has come to vain.... I have to seirously do something about it dy... Otherwise, I will end up eating like a gold fish and die like a gold fish. Jia-lat.

Now I feel like vomiting cz i just drank two bowl of soup for my supper. Wanna vomit dy.....Somebody save me from binge eating~~~

BURPZ......

GOSSIP GIRL SEASON 3

2009-09-26T14:05:00.005+08:00

Omigosh. It's already out out... starting Sept 14 to next year's March (I think).... Pheww.... can't wait to see Blair and Chuck come into what kinda of new affairs again...... I'm starting my 1st episode now at maze.com after a few broken links.... well. I think this following link works. I hope it does!

p/s: you have to download divx in order to watch it. it will only take a few couple of minutes.

GOSSIP GIRL SE03EP01: http://m4ze.com/tvseries/Gossip+Girl/season/3/episode/1

XOXO.... SEE YA SOON

Goodbye Doogie......

2009-09-24T17:15:00.004+08:00

I used to see them playing around, three of them, brothers and sisters I guess, jumping merrily. From left, to right, on you on me, chasing at every corner of the construction site. They were playing like there's no yesterday. Somehow, these three small little puppies kinda bring life to the concrete jungle. Especially the hostel that I;m staying. People do not even greet, smile or even looked at each other. I wonder do they even know they're actually staying the same building if they bump into each other. Now I realize the life in a city and the outskirts. Different. Very different.

However, today on my way back from school, I heard very sharp shierking barks from the construction site. I thought, perhaps they're just playing with each other, with a doubtful heart. So to confirm my doubts, i tried to get a better view at the hostel's lobby. And to my horror..... I saw the doggie for once it was yanking very very hard and then getting lesser and lesser on the grasp of the contruction worker. Then he snuck them into a big gunny sack, throw the pile of dead stuff on to the lorry... and there they three went off....

Three little puppies that were once the communication topic of the animals lover or hater around the hostel has now gone forever and never come back again.

try using morzilla... if you can't really see my posts.... sth is wrong with internet explorer

2009-09-15T19:31:00.000+08:00

The forgotten laughter....

2009-09-15T19:16:00.002+08:00

From the very begining, I knew it. Sth was wrong. Has gone seriously wrong. But I just don't wanna think about it. I knew, thinking about it means I admit its true. But not thinking about it - I'm not living in reality. In fact that's the whole point of cognitve dissonance right? A situation that you can't really believe that's you.

I don't know since when or what causes me to become like this. I kinda forgotten how to laugh, smile and be happy about things. I kinda forgot that happy go lucky me, the light-hearted me, the friendly me, the approachable me. What am I now? I guess.... some crazy depressive woman - who in fact everyday sulks, quiet, unfriendly look. I just don't know what's wrong with me.

I can't bear with it anymore. I know, as a human, I'm supposed to a social machine. But, I tend to lost those humanly skills. Where had it gone? I don't know....... I hope that I will find it out soon..........

p/s: i kinda regret that I msned Chin Shi Hong just now. I don't know why he's the person i resort to whenever i feel terribly bad. But i know i shouldn't. Stupid mel

Back from 7 Weeks Hibernation

2009-09-08T17:32:00.004+08:00

Hello ladies and gentleman. I’m finally got back again after 7 weeks of disappearance. I know, some people are getting frustrated, or even annoyed of me being so inconsistent in blogging. Like the favorite Malaysian chippie called, “skejap ade, skejap tarak” kind of attitude. But, who doesn’t want a break from all these brain-juice-grinding-blogging-for-the-sake-of-telling-you kinda work? Even gossip girl does. FYI: I don’t really blog well and my usage language is bad- all time. Pardon me.

So, for 7 weeks, I’d grow up a little, mentally (e.g.: life outlook, perceptions, stress management, people relations) and physically (e.g.: body fat mass, pit’s hair, x-hair, and anywhere you do notice) Basically, as a rep up, many events had happened over the hols like seriously working for dad, kinda designing company name cards & catalogues, curiously attended 6 days longetivity course, crazily watching The Nanny with mom, happily going vacation with my old besties, randomly snapping pictures, shockingly someone died next door from an accident, out of suddenly roomie moving out, sillily (okay, I know this adj doesn’t exist… but Ms. Selina said the sentence must always be coherent) and eventually got signed up for HAA102 Intro to Design. Phewwww! That’s kinda rep up what happened to this woman over the hols – BERNAMA

There’s only some events that I would like to elaborate more on that, mainly because it needs elaboration-lah! Dong! Kay, I… nope. We went for a vacation at somewhere near Cherating beach. I know you are excited, KL PEOPLE; but I’M TOO EXICITED:KAMPUNG PEOPLE!!! Hello… is summer and going to a beach is supposed to be on a must do list during summer right? Plus, its even more fun and eventful when you go with a bunch of old friends (literally). You can never imagine how fun it is. Sandy beach, cloudy day, calmy ombak, handsomy guys, bluie pool. Okay, cut the crap. Basically the three of us went for a 2 days 1 night holiday along Kemaman and Terengganu area. It wasn’t a long drive from Kuantan, around 20 mins slow drive about 80km/hours; you know, you don’t really wanna hit some kampong cow and got your car injured. So you have to drive CAREFULLY. We stayed at HOLIDAY VILLA a.k.a EASTERN PAVILLION, was a nice place. During peak season, the chalet was still at a reasonable price RM250/night, as compared to PORT DICKIE around RM450/night. Itupun their beach very dirty, unlike Cherating one. SERIOUSLY. The have no sandy, bluie, calmy thing at there. Forget about it if you wanna go port dickie. I KNEW IT I KNEW IT!! Hey, btw… don’t let others know kay? Keep this dirty secret between us because you don’t wanna see people start going to Cherating and polluting the bitches there…. E.g: pee pee in the ocean. As for the photos part…. Here are some of the preview… Enjoy…..

OMIGOSH!!! GONNA MISS ALL THIS GOOD TIME WE HAD!

Not only that, I also attended to some longetivity course at Kemaman. Honestly, at the beginning, I really don’t believe about this healing matter, until I start to feel the different in myself. Let me start telling you what is longetivity is. It is like a process of healing through transferring the universe energy to you own body ans so activates you body metabolism in order to function normally. Seems a little too wordy? Well, simple. The logic behind this is why are people sick? People are only sick when their body cells does not function as normally when they are healthy. So, longetivity helps this person to reactivate their body cells to become back healthy. Thus, there’s actually no need of different prescriptions like the Western or Eastern medical to heal different kinds of sickness. So how to heal? Simple, all you have to do is put you hands on places that you felt sick (technically from people who’d attended this course where they got their chakras opened).Okay, I know sounds very very vague as it is. But, through the course, I’d seen many many different people are cured from their sickness through their testimonies. Personal true story from me: If you know me well, you must have realize I often had migraines whenever it started to rain. So after learning longetivitology class for the 2^nd day, I tried adjusting those areas myself. And after a few times later on, I seemed to not have remembered when is the last time my migraines issue had occurred anymore. Well, one short paragraph from me may had not convinced you, but if you’re interested or have family members who have high blood pressures, diabetes, osteoporosis, I strongly suggest you to have a look in www.longevitology.idv.tw or for English version www.longevitology.com. Anyway, you have nothing to loose, the courses are free of charge, religion, and race.

TOP LEFT PICT: THE FOUNDER OR THIS LONGEITIVITY COURSE

And regarding about someone who had passed away my next door, is referring to my daddy’s shop neighbor. He died in an accident while I was at KL attending 30 Hour Famine. It was really really sad when I heard about it. How this happened, its when he was pumping a tyre of a tractor, there was a sudden rise in the pressure applied to the tyre caused the tyre to explode. And, so he was blown off ground with the tyre, hitted on a canopy and fall back onto the ground. When he was rushed to Kuantan’s GH, he was rescued by the team. But his condition deteriorated the next day. His left brain was dead; there were several concussions on his spinal bone and continuous bleeding. Doctors could not do any operations, the said even he’s condition had improved, he would on be a vegetable. In the end, he died on the next day. Police actually filed this case a freak accident. What I’d learnt from this accident is, you never know what will happen tomorrow. So, live like there’s no tomorrow. Have you told your parents you loved them so much today? What do you have to complain about your life? Think again.

NEVER TOO FORGET THE OTHER HALF OF OUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS WHO'S LESS UNFORTUNATE THAN US IN THE REST OF THE WORLD : 30 HOUR FAMINE 2009

Lastly… the following are my pre-done desktop wallpapers that supposed to be hand in on this Friday themed “I Love Design”. Any comments? I would sincerely appreciate it. FYI: Ms. Neesa wants something simple but should show a little effort in doing it… so I hope she likes both of it

WALLPAPER 001 : DESIGN IS MY SOUL

WALLPAPER 002: ME HEART DESIGN (THE COLOUR CHANGED A LITTLE ON WEBSITE)

Kay... I guess that's it for now....See you guys in no time. I apologize if any part of this blog has caused any uneasiness, nauseating images, or so forth....... Retired back to resting mode.zzzzzzzz

Da Vincci Code by Dan Brown

2009-07-06T22:09:00.002+08:00

Plot: It is a quest to protect the secretive Holy Grail that has been brought down over the centuries which was believed to be inherited since the death of Jesus, which otherwise may be lost forver after the death of a janitor in Louvre Meseum. Throughout the quest more mystery was uncovered by Sophie, the grandaughter of the janitor and Robert Langdon, a lecturer on symbiologist.

I actually bought this book years ago but I left it untouched until recently I watched the movie tie in. I remembered when I first read this book, I felt so lost (mostly because I'm plainly bad in reading) and I just could not make a sense out of it. However after I watched the movie version of this book, straight away I grabbed this old dusty book and start flipping over the pages.

The thing that I love about this book is the way the author sneak in many interesting history, theory, and both true and fake facts. I also find interesting as to how the way the plot twist and turn according to the symbols and tips that is deciphered each time. It's really and mind boggling, adventurous, unexpected ending throughout the story. Thumbs up! I guess this book is suitable for those who get bored with those common-story-plots that you always read.

Although I personally liked this fiction very much, some other commentators may not. For example, some facts that were put in are not entirely true (you can check it out at Wikipedia), and the way the Catholic church was propagandize as the antagonist in this story was not well accepted amongst a few groups of people.

Nevertheless, it all left to your own judgement. I depends on your personal likings. Some of my friends said the understand nuts about this story, some say its awesome, some even have no comment on this story (neutral sahaja). However, I should say its worth to spend some of your time reading some books during your hols. Happy Hols people~!

Bon Odori Malaysia 2009

2009-06-27T15:11:00.008+08:00

Date: 18th July 2009 (Sat.)
Venue: Kompleks Sukan Negara
(Panasonic Sports Complex)
Admission: Free

Programme

17:00 Gates Open 19:00 Opening - Drum Performance 19:15 Enjoy the Cultural Dance Part 1 19:45 Dance by Guest Performers 20:00 Enjoy the Cultural Dance Part 2 20:30 Dance by Guest Performers 20:45 Enjoy the Cultural Dance Part 3 21:15 Closing Address

Due to the limieted number of parking bays, participants are strongly recommended to utilise the KTM.
Free Shuttle Bus services will be provided to transport participants from the KTM Shah Alam Station (Section 19) to the Kompleks Sukan Negara and vice versa.
This free shuttle service is available from 4pm to 11pm.

For enquiries, please call Japan Information Service, Embassy of Japan at 03-2177-2600 or the Japan Club at 03-2274-2274
courtesy of Japan Foundation Website

Bon odori is actually a festival to celebrate their ancestors finally reach their "place" safely. Its like celebrating the end of their ghost festival. In Japan, it is always celebrated during the summer time. I believe is a much grander one over there. Normally, the girls will wear a yukata, lol, who wanna wears a kimono during summer time? And guys will wear their yukatas too...(People seldom wear t-shirt and jeans there!!) And so, they will celebrate it in a traditional way... Performances, fireworks, paper lilies, games are normally what comes with BON ODORI. Altough I never attended one, but I heard that the Japanese (hey, I'm speaking real Japanese)will come over and sell their merchandices and games. I guess it gonna be a nice time to spend with you family, loved ones, etcetra.....

Whichever way, I must make it to BON ODORI this year... I'd been wanna to attend one since 2006. But, you know, I always miss the date. Oh well.. I wish I can make iot there this year.... Hurm, I guess I should start working on my yukata and clogs.... ^^ P/s: anyone interested? call me... we can go together perhaps...

FRENCH MANICURE TUTORIALS FOR BEGINNERS

2009-06-23T12:10:00.010+08:00

The following, is the step by step French Pedicure especially for beginners. There's many ways out there teaching you on how to do a perfect french pedicure. But we all know that either the tools to do your own professional french manicure are very costly or they require a lot of skills. Doing a french pedicure at saloon would also not a good alternative especially during the economy downturn and AHINI. So why not try it yourself at home with all these simple tools?

IN THE FOLLOWING I WILL SHOW YOU ON HOW TO DO STEP BY STEP BASIC FRENCH MANICURE/ PEDICURE. IT APPLIES ON BOTH SQUARE TOE AND FINGERNAILS

Before you start trying out the following steps, please read the caution part thoroughly. I'm also pretty amateur at nail art and so you may wanna take the caution steps into consideration before you proceed.

REMEMBER NOT TO START WITH YOUR FINGERNAILS 1ST IF YOU'RE TRYING TO DO THE SAME THING ON YOUR TOES. YOU MAY SIMPLY DIRTY YOU FINGERNAILS IN THE PROCESS... MY ADVICE: START WITH YOUR TOES.

This tutorial only applies to those square toe and fingernails because it is easier to begin with. So shape it square! Btw, don't you notice square nails make you finger looks slender?

1.You would need to prepare the following items:-

base coat
tape
base color
top coat
white color (according to yr desired color)
manicure hand tool
temporary stickers (optional)

2. Buff, shape, trim and clean your toenails from dust, dirt and oil

3. Apply base coat on your toenails. Wait for it to dry.

4. Then apply your desired base color. Make sure the color blends well white the second color. Note: make sure it totally dries out!

5. Arrange the tape on your nail at your desired length. Make sure the tape sticks on your nails securely if you don't want to see jagged edge later!

6. Apply the white nail color on the portion of the nails that is not covered by the tape

7. Remove the tape before the white color dries out. Caution:: You may want a little practice on pulling this tape.

8. Decorate you nails according to your creativity. Use a pin instead of buying a professional hand tool to apply your temporary stickers, but its a good investment tough. I think i bought it for around RM5-10 at One Utama some shop stand near TGV

9. Lastly, apply top coat and you're done. Caution:: Apply the top coat lightly. You don't want you hard-worked-manicure to get smudged.

You and Your Brother's GF

2009-06-16T16:24:00.003+08:00

HATE TO LOVE; LOVE TO HATE. I EVENTUALLY GOT IT

I really jealous of how people can could socialize with their brother's GF. The thing about me is I never get close to her. It's not like she's just started to date with my bro recently... But I think it's gonna be about 2 years. And I barely talk with her. To be frank. I don't even know her name until my mom told me so.

I realy felt the akwardness each time she comes to our house or have a family outing. You know how strange is it like to not talk to someone in the same group (like as if they don't exist). I guess I knew part of the reason why we never talked to each other. I used to hate her. I mean alot. The reason is part of mr felt jealous for her taking my brother away from me, part of it was because the incident that happened 2 years ago in which I called her phone and scolded her not to ask my bro to call her so often. Ohkay, not scolding but warning. I know people.... You wanna call me a bossy momma? Go ahead. But how do you keep your mouth shut when the monthly bills shoot up to RM200 per month (padahal their school are next to each other and went tuition together)? They make calls as if they were parted in two different poles of the world.

But, anyhow, things got worse after that. (Don't worry, my mom eventually subscribe those celcom plan where no charges applied when you call your "family"). What I'm referring to here is the relationship between my bro and I. He thinks that I suck (well, I think he suck to btw), like I'm blocking he and his gf together. But I on the other hand doesn't like her because the way she treated my brother sometimes- like her punch bag. You know how she put gasses over my bro when she fight with her mom. And so, I think that part of these changed my bro to become a small gas person, aggresive and impatient. Well, that's what I think at least.

Well, whatever it is..... so far till now, those were just my guessing... I couldn't make conclusion about someone without actually knowing them in person. I'm 20 now and I have to make judgement like a adult. But how???? How am I going to talk to her like I chat with my girlfriends? I don't even dare to think of going shopping, movie or even gossipin with her. Owh... this is HOLY.....

I KNOW I HAVE TO TRY THIS... TO AT LEAST LIKE HER?

please tellme how you ussually make up with you brother's girlfriend okay? i'm so lost....
p/s: going makan with my bro and his gf tonite at wangsa maju. akward-nyerrrrr

ORBING / ZORBING @ TITIWANGSA.

2009-06-13T19:47:00.003+08:00

THE GIANT ORBING BALL.. PRETTY HEAVY THOUGH ALTHOUH IT IS MADE UP OF AIR AND PLASTIC

I went Orbing/Zorbing this morning as participants for Victoria’s LLS project together with 6 of her other team members. What the heck is Zorbing by the way one may wonder. Well, is actually some kinda “sport” I would say whereby you first will be stuff into a HUGE ball with another partner. Then, you will be rolled in a trek. You get to choose to play in dry/ wet condition too. (HELLO, extra RM5 to play in the wet ball)Something like that-lah. So, for RM20, I get to try this sport and do charity at the same time. Fun huh!

THE TREK FOR THE BALL TO ROLL. IT'S MAN PUSHED BY THE WAY :)

What I personally think about this sport is worth a try for once. At least to experience what is it like to be in a washing machine or a mother’s womb. Haha…. Some even called it a freaking vagina… Really. It is really worth a try and not like other extreme sports where you may risk youself getting injured. This is rather a mild one since you were secured properly in da ball.

"ANY LAST WORDS? FOR YOUR PARENTS?" FINAL CHECK BY THE INSTRUCTORS BEFORE THE ROLLING BEGINS

At the beginning, I thought everyone gonna act like as though they don’t know each other and mind their own business. Considering the –quite-quiet-bus-ride we took all the way to Titiwangsa. But eventually, when the ball starts rolling, people start having fun and socializing around. This is part of the reason why I sometimes like sports so much over other activities. People really come together without trying hard to make some topic to chat.

WET AND FUN. THE GROUP SHOT

Well, this whole fun Zorbing this wasn’t all only about university students, but also the instructor there. Omigosh, you should see how they play and tricked us. They splashed water, rolled us like mad, laughed, talked, joke, etc. What a splendid time we have. Although to be honest, I kinda don’t like them at the beginning with their “action” face and all. However, you really never expected them to be like that after a few rolls. Ahem: I even got one free ride after the whole thing ends… Ehehehe. Conclusion : fun fun fun!!!!!!

Aftermath: Although you not gonna get any scratch throughout the game, but I still feel a little dizzy in my head. I can still imagine myself in that Zorbing ball with Victoria…. LOL! I guess I will recover after some time.

BALL KICKING CEREMONY BY SANDRA AND MEL. :)

P/s: more pictures, please browse through my Facebook.
Note: I’m calling this sport here Zorbing but I guess the actual name is ORBING. If you would like to check out more for this game, I guess you should google under the name ORBING instead.

You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

LONG STORY SHORT; SHORT STORY LONG

2009-06-03T18:13:00.003+08:00

THE FOLLOWING IS THE PICTORIAL FORMAT OF WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME RECENTLY

THIS PICT IS NONSENSE. JUST TO SHOW YOU HOW MUCH I;'D GROWN UP OVER THE FEW WEEKS

I didn't get to enrol into Introduction to Design Class for this semester. And so I'm absolutely taking no elective and I may be taking design class again next semester. Bless me; bless you. In replace of my free elective, I created my own elective; which is learning Japanese language that I'dsidetracked long long time ago. Planning to take the Jap proficiency test this year.

I'm broke concurrently. I attended Deb's bday and ate the most expensive food amongst the whole table. I ordered Lamb Chop (RM 50++) and Absolute Citron (RM20++). I also went shopping spree at BODY SHOP two days ago and bought a few cheap and expensive things. All rounded I spent RM191

I'd finished Law of Ueki in 1 week. Is a good movie tough about friendship and justice of humanity.

I decorated my room. It's really messy. I bought in a few furniture from IKEA RM300 something

I'm going vacation to Cameron Highlands this Friday to celebrate mom's bday. Have not finish doing her present yet. Is a crosstich tough

I'm having Stats exam tomorrow. And If I were to continue this I would otherwise fail. Bless me; bless you.

p/s: this is some new hairstyle that I'd try out….. did you notice that? Is a ribbon on my head…. Kawaiiii desuneh!.

Sorry if these post don't make sense. I'm actually in a hurry to go for gym. Buh byeee…

The Etiquette of Opening a Present

2009-05-17T12:45:00.002+08:00

It was at A&W where I held my 10^th birthday. I remember that year how I freaked my mom out when I invited everyone to A&W before she even booked a place there. Well, that left her with no choice but to help there. Yeah, it was my most GLAMOROUS birthday (at that time, who want to celebrate their 21^st birthday at A&W anymore?).

Everyone was eyeing on the third colorfully wrapped box that I held, warily; wondering when I will reach the 7^th present. It seems to take forever. So do me. The reason I’d been opening so slowly was not because the present paper was so unique that I wanted to keep it (at least some of them are really pretty one) but was because I didn’t want to tear away those effort they put into carefully wrapping it. Oh God, I know how difficult to wrap something especially when it is not rectangular shape (that doesn’t mean I don’t give credits to those box-shaped ones, I do. It is still difficult dude). At that time, the feeling of tearing off the present paper into shreds means tearing my friend’s heart too. Fear of getting anyone upset about that is a no no thing. So I took the long way instead. I first scrape off the tape one by one until the present came out. Well, I should say that normally the way they wrapped the present impress me more than the gifts. Well, what to do, we were just poor little kids and we have standard typical gifts right? Pencil box, clock, note book, and blab la bla.

Okay, the main purpose here wasn’t about the best present in the world (hey, perhaps this gonna be a gud discussion topic next time), but how should you open a present that is tightly wrapped with a thousand layers of tape. Since Sangee’s birthday is around the corner. I think the best way to wrap her present would be tapeless if I wanted her to open right in front of me. Perhaps you should share your experience here too. Well, to be honest, I don’t have definite answer here. (Don’t worry; I’ll be changing my blogskin soon so that it is made commendable for every post). But still, you can choose to leave a comment at the tag board. But actually, I think its pretty dead huh my blog. Sometimes, it made me wonder who da heck I’m talking tu. >.<

p/s:i hope you like the new skin, anonymous. I wasted my whole day to look for the right one

Xx Mel

Get disconnected from the hustles n bustles

2009-05-12T15:45:00.000+08:00

Well, it’s been a while since I last posted any postings here. Just to update you peeps on what I’d been doin for the past few weeks. Melissa has gone M.I.A. Well some may wonder whether she’d been sucked by a alien’s platter to another world or she’d just simply flushed herself down into the toilet. There’s no news from her. Lol. Some may end up become very wary… ^^ I know. And that’s why I’m here back again.

Over the past two weeks, I had went back to my hometown, Kuantan (it’s the ibu kota of Pahang you moron!) to reunite with my family. Well, it’s so nice of Victoria, Federick and Evie to check me out sometimes. Federick did asked me what I’d been doin and my answer to him was: doing what I do not have the chance doing when the semester begins-lah! The below listed some of the highlights of my holiday….

Cherating, the sexy bitch.

Splendid. Would be the best word to describe Cherating beach. The see-through-clear water, the pearl white sandy beach, hot hunks, coconuts, and all the beautiful things that you can find from a beach. Sorry my dear friends, no picture this time. I didn’t bring back my camera to Kuantan and so I had no choice but savor all the beautiful scenes myself. Not only that, I got the chance to touch real anacondas! Sizes ranges from S, M, and L!! No kidding. The size of the biggest one was as thick as your smaller thigh! Too bad, no camera to prove it. But, I never knew a snake’s skin felt so smooth and oily. Wow, that was really a experience!

The Hash Run

My dad is a hasher, but inactive one. He runs one a while. (FYI: Hash = Hash House Harrier : Is a dedicated club for runners/jungle trackers, I would say. Normally they would run for 5-6km each time. Consists of many good mountain climbers, runners and C9s. Middle aged people. More info, google it yourself.) And yeap, that day he supposed to be a leader and so he has to set the trails for the members. I followed suit. I like to set trails because you don’t really have to run but walk. And also you do not have to walk the miles for all the false trails. And yup, again…. A touch of mother’s nature came into action. The thick, lush green canopy, the sound of the running waters, the sounds of the bugs of Sungai Lembing’s Oil Palm Estate. Man, I really enjoyed the place. Sometimes, when we’re too busy, we tend to forget to slow down and have a look on all these nature’s gifts. Although the journey was tiresome and hot, the return was great. I really would like to go there again once more. As fun as it could be, I was a little scared that day, because I was wearing a bright-red-shirt. And gotcha… the cows are looking over their shoulders at you. Not forgetting my elder cousin sister was chased by a cow the other day. Lol, I almost got shit in my pants. But luckily, nothing happened. Phew! And yeah, as for souvenirs, it would be a bunch of mosquito’s bite all around my beautiful legs. Don’t be surprised short-panted-melissa become long-panted-melissa this coming semester. LOL!

Living Small

Have you ever wonder one day you’ll shrink and live in those big and beautifool miniature mansion? I’m a little fetish in these stuffs. I liked doing all these DIY and let others to admire it (sorry, I’ll show you next time I got back my hometown). Yup. I’d been busy with this mini mother’s sewing room and Lego © miniature, since my family is working on a family’s gallery in the piano room. So, we need to find a few of our childhood toys to decorate it. I can tell you, it’s not east to build a Lego © when every small parts of it is jumble up with other 10 sets. My goodness. I only get to finish one set and that’s it. The others will go back to my brother to do it himself.

Besides all these wonderfool activities I’d been doing over the hols, I did some manga reading…. It was a shoujo manga called Desire Climax and First Girl. Well, it was a little explicit. But, it almost made me cry in a few scenes…. >.< || I guess, that’s all the updates you’re supposed to know. For details, I guess I should keep it to myself aite? Plus, I’m already hatsuka and so, I should learn to keep some secrets to myself.

p/s: MELISSA WILL LEARN TO BE MORE HATSUKAAAAAAAAAAAA~! OOPPS. Hatsuka….

You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

Unidentified - LOVE

2009-04-25T02:52:00.002+08:00

Love, Undefined (The Problem About Marriage)

Sacrifice, Partnership, companionship, being together, care of each other, think of each other, value and respect…. Is it enough to define what love is? I guess, all these are pretty much brief and has bring out the meaning of LOVE at face value. By the way, the type of LOVE that I'm referring here is the love of your partner (boyfriend or what so ever). Although I'd never been into a B/G relationship yet, I guess I gained some insights from my friend's experience as well as people around me throughout these years. The question here is; how do you say when you LOVE someone? What does that mean and how does it supposed to feel like. I'd asked this question time and time again to different people. And in general, they simply answer me in ambiguity and vague. Some of the top 3 answer:-

You simply feel good being around with them
You think of them often
You wanna have sex with the

Given some thought about it, is what LOVE really meant then? Isn't all these reasons people in general provide is little too vague? And does when people provide vague answer meant actually they themselves doesn't know how it REALLY felt like to be in love? In my opinion, I believe love is something more than these 3 reasons. You see, you're most probably gonna feel this way for the next few decades towards this prospective partner, and do you think this reason is still valid for years to come? Wouldn't this feeling just get old and soon withered away? Just like new furniture in your house, after 6-7 years, you seem to barely notice it actually exists since you'd get used to it being there for a while.

The reason why I brought up this question is that I see nowadays; most of the marriages end up divorce. And most of the reason were due to external affair ( on either party). Well, the question is why? These episodes are getting more and more common as if it is a ritual for most marriages to end up divorces. I wonder what happened to the vows you made in front of the many who had attended on your wedding day or the countless "forever" you use to express how much you care for each other. Who were to blame? The non-stop-nagging wife, or the seldom-speak-up husband or the wolfy-third-party?

Some time ago, I read from a book; the author state that since LOVE is some lifelong commitment, so both parties should have strong common ground. As in, you both do agree on certain things, do fetish of some similar stuff, or simply have the same goal in life. This may in a way helped you both so see eye to eye and avoid many unnecessary conflicts. Although there may still be some difference in certain aspect (which otherwise you had just married to a mirror), make sure the difference are kept as little as possible. Can you imagine living with a person who has so many things that is so-not-you for the rest of your life? Are you going to tolerate him/she (come on, we're talking about for decades man; you may say you'll change but how far can you change?). At times, you may not agree with certain things he see, but you respect his point of view. Well, this may be something important to take not about. So, next time whenever you see two couples spending time together window shopping at the mall, don't be jealous but rather pity them. Because they has nothing else better to do than buying things ( wasting $ ) together. Their relationship is rather empty. Think again, do you think the guy enjoy spending hours choosing the right clothes or even bra with for his partner (he may rather watch football or play Dota at home!). As for the girl, she may think her guy doesn't really give any good criticism on the clothes she chooses like her friends. "Oh, how boring!".

So I guess rule 1 in choosing a right prospective partner should have strong common ground. Like, they have the same hobbies, liking, and interests. And that is where communication elements start to play role in understanding each other. Otherwise, what are both of you gonna talk about if you don't share any similar interest? Think about it and share your opinion with me. Btw, this is my personal opinion. I have not really dated someone and so, I may simply end up like the couples-going-shopping when I really dated someone. Who knows? It's too early to say anything. ^^

An Affair With Arts

2009-04-23T14:40:00.006+08:00

An Affair with Arts

Hey peeps.

Exam is over. And now I have the time to spend on blogging again. Okay, many things has happened recently. Tough I'm not sure where to begin with. I'll share the most interesting part of it with you, which is my fascination about art.

I may not be creative, I may not draw well, I may not dance well, I may not be able to express myself well, I don't think so I dress tastefully. BUT what I'm sure is that I love to see arts. I like to go for art exhibition (photography & paintings), stage play (although I'd never been to one before; I'd seen it at Astro once - I straight away liked it!), fashion shows, and weird accessories.

It is from arts that I enjoy how people see something which is simple and express it in a complicated way; vice versa. The things about art is that - we just take granted of a lot of things that happened around us. For example, the recent play called "Stage Therapy" which is a combination of several other short play. One of the titles talked about A Smile in The Train. I guess, most of us have never noticed people's expression in the train. Once, my roommate told me that how awesome these 'city people' see through your face expressionlessly in the train. Yeah, people basically looked tired, bored, day dreaming, etc in the train. As if the moment while they're in the train has no life. Even I myself, I pretty much get used to this entire “dead people" in the train and become one of them after some time. Haha. But do you know, how much change would you bring into if you simply put a cheesy smile on your face while you're in the train? Well perhaps, not laughing hysterically (you might just place a shit on other's pants). But just a sweet smile would definitely make a difference to others. At least, that’s what I believe.

Besides play, they'll also be an upcoming art exhibition called "Rear View" at Kl Pac by a Korean artist name Yang Jaebum. The interesting thing about his idea is how he sees life in a different perspective. Based on the synopsis on how they describe his artwork, I think what Jaebum try to convey is that often we forgotten to see things in a different way. Have you ever see the same thing from the front and the rearview. Please tell me they looked different. Yes, it is that difference that is different. Whenever we make a decision (shifting into a different lane) we take a look at a different angle (look at the rearview you donkey) so that we would not regret in long term (avoid other car kiss yours). Art is the mixture of creativity, philosophy and psychology in different contrast and intensity.Yeah, I really like all these things. Art inspires me a lot.

The upcoming Bazaar at Annexe Gallery is another event that I'm looking forward into. It is some art bazaar selling pretty cool things by our local artist. There are gonna be a lot of handmade accessories and clothes, ornaments, drawings, and music. Damn cool man. You definitely gonna get something which is very deviant and unique. This is the chance for you to get away from all the fashion slavery and be yourself (to me at least) and avoid from having the same booboo doll (dresses, my term) with others. Think out of the box, and see the unthinkable. I don't guarantee you'll find something you like, but I believe it will be something you'd never seen in Megamall.

Well... if you're like me, being so fetish in Arts; please lemme know. I know this kinda thing don't fancy alot of people. Most people prefer cinema over play, they like to be in line with fashion rather be different (not weird, as in like what they really like), and yeah - paintings are boring. I understand. We just have some different hobbies and passion. Whatever please comment. Don't spy and leave. I know.

p/s: know any interesting this kinda thing coming up, must let Mel know. I will appreciate it a lot.

Bye for now. I have to start to prepare for tomorrow's interview.

Bad Servitude.

2009-04-14T13:42:00.003+08:00

As much as I like eating sushi, I hate the service the provide us during promo. They treated us like hungry beggar wanting to eat their sashimiii so much.. Pui! What the fish, you think you're the sushi restaurant in the whole wide Malaysia? Open your eyes la frog.... (kay, just wanna lepas my gas on how unhappy was I just now when I went to Sushi King's Bonanza Promo)

Hey peeps, if you're planning to go there, there's few catch that you may want to take notice about:-

1. You have only 60 minutes to eat
2. You eat whatever they serve
3. You must stand their condescending attitudes towards you
4. Only sushi is priced RM2. (Sushi = rice based food)

Ohkay, thats all for today. I'm gonna study for my MC100 now. I guess I did pretty bad for my previous tests in MC100. 35/60? Oh man, I just lepas pagar. Shit. Worst result ever. Don't worry I won't cry over spilt ocha. I will work hard for the coming test. Dudu~~

TAKE NOTE: THIS BLOG WILL UNDERGO HERBINATION PERIOD FOR THE NEXT 2 WEEKS. (23/4/09) BECAUSE THE OWNER WILL BE TAKING EXAM. SO SEE YOU TILL THEN. KEEP YOUSELVES BUSY OTHERWISE YOU'LL MISS ME. ^^

XOXO
mel
You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

Sushi Mania

2009-04-14T09:14:00.003+08:00

ATTENTION TO ALL SUSHI LOVERS

SUSHI KING IS HAVING A BI-ANNUAL PROMO
(IF I'VE NOT MISTAKEN)
AT RM2 FOR ALL THE SUSHI MARATHONING ON THE CONVEYOR BELT
HAVE FUN & IF YOU'RE SMART ENOUGH (LIKE ME) EAT THE MOST EXPENSIVE ONES 1ST. ^^
THIS PROMOTION STARTS ON THIS MONDAY TO THIS THURSDAY
APPLY TO ALL SUSHI KING CARD MEMBER
(IF YOU DON'T HAVE ONE, COME AND BORROW FROM ME :)

Btw, I'm heading there today with my friends... Reason why we go today and not yesterday is because Sushi served yesterday may not be fresh ones. So, let those people eat the not fresh ones yesterday, and we have the crispy sashimis today! ^^Y

FRIENDLY REMINDER: make sure you apply alot alot of wasabi on your SASHIMI to kill the bacteria and avoid food poisoning later.. (i know as much i hate the spicy feeling over my throat and nose, for the sake of tasty sashimi, oh well......)

YEESH, HAVING EXAM THIS FRIDAY BUT FOR SUSHI, I CAN DO THE UNTHINKABLE. SCEW THE TEST~~~

FOUND ANYTHING WRONG WITH THIS PLATTER OF SUSHI?

xoxo Mel

You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

Ugly as I am

2009-04-10T23:07:00.002+08:00

Ugly

Do you ever feel at one part of your life that you're ugly? You simply look ugly at every angle... No matter how much you adorn yourself with meaningless artificial ornaments & apparel. You're simply ugly just the way you are. Reason why? I really don't know. What I'm sure about is I definitely feel this way right now. This thing has concurrently brought my self esteem to -ve 100%. The strange thing is I has never felt this way before. I mean I never thought I'm prettier than others or anything. But at least, I'm satisfied with the way I look. I remember once I said this to victoria "You must love yourself before others love you". I guess, I kinda don't like the way I look now and as such, I don't think so Crown like me the way I am. What the fish I'd been thinking all the while. All the crap fate, crap convos, crap "sticky face" is simply just my illusion. Those are all not true. You met him so often at school because our school i SMALL, the mini convos you had because you're CLASSMATES, the sticky face thing is because you LOOK at him and so you'll feel that he LOOKS at you too. DUMBO. I'm just an idiot. Good night.

ugly.sa.

You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

The thing about relaxing

2009-04-08T16:37:00.002+08:00

The Virtue of Relaxing

Since exam coming around. A little thing that I wanna share with you to help youv study better is to relax! Yup. Although there are thousands and thousands of ever ending pages that oyu not only have to understnad but memorize, take this relaxing tips. I realy helps me better in studying.

1. Listen to songs that have slow modes when you're studying. It regulates yr moods alot. Some of the music by all this artiste i would recommmend:-Yiruma: best pianist that i ever knew of

Yanni: Best meditative songs. Makes you feel close to nature and all

2. Go for yoga. I allows you to have all muscle that you're not aware of having it to be flexed. Let them breathe then, you can asorb things better by then..

Hatta Yoga

3. Take enough of sleep

4. Eat healthily. More fruits an less other types of genre of food. Take whatever is necessary. You know better than i do right? Yup, and drink alot of water.

By then, you're more than prepared to study well for exams. Remember, all work no play makes JACK a dull boy.......

xoxo
Mel

You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

Gloom Day

2009-04-08T15:07:00.002+08:00

A Gloom Day

Here comes the last week of my 1st semester, 1st year for my degree in psychology. Little did I know that time has actually flew... There's so many things I learned this semester, happened this semester, decided this semester, and well, targeted this semester. What I have to say? Move on and exam is coming. Speaking of moving on, I really had not revised well the things I has to study on- mc100: one whole book has not been read, and what electives that I'm taking next semester? I really don't know. Still ablur....

Yup, so many things to think about and perhaps thats the reason why today I felt to gloomy. I guessm for the most part of it is because my Easter project thing tommorow and the crowd wasn't so enthusiatic. Which I really did not prepared for it. I thought they're gonna be very eager to decorate an egg and donate it to the home. Oh well, we'll see how it turns out to be tommorow. Who knows many people actually gonna bring an egg tommorow right?

I admit that this whole idea thing is all about me myself and I. I am the one who is so fixated in my highschool time doing eggies during easter day. I was the one who suggested sangee to make this big. So, who to blame? Me. Too little emphaty that I have on others. (Kay, i'm typing all the scraps in my mind so the thing here doesn't make sense). Perhaps people are just too busy with their own thing. And seem to care less about all these things. Stupid mel.

Not only this easter-project-failure thing that makes my day so gray, but also PSG. They games that they had today is obviously discriminating towards people who are of bigger size. I really don't like the game. Rather than learning about teamwork, never give up things, I learned about to be self concious about my body shape. Well, the initial intention may be good, but they did not consider about how others may feel. So, yeah. So suck.

Another thing besides this is I met this guy called K (nickname). Well initially I thought he was nice and all, but eventually he acted like u-ugly-so-i-don't-know-you. What the..! He's like damn mengada. I know you always mix with some pretty chicks , but the thing is, you should not forget your virtue of being nice to others also right? Dumboooooooooo! Pui. Stupid man.

On top of all these super bad thing, the good thing is I start having few mini convos with crown. Well, it was good, he was polite & nice ^^. Btw, this is my first time talking to him neh~ So proud of myself. But, the thing is, we did not asked each other names at all. I just shoved him the flyer that sangee made; and then he said ok. And then, I did mentioned his name when he was around (lol, he must think this girl! Since when she knew my name? Weirdoooooo). He was a very obvious good listener when there is this girl in my class got problem. He actually sat down and talk to her.... Really an amazing person.... No temper and alll... Like a saint >.<|| Too bad, I couldn't sit and talk together gether for sangee and all was waiting for me. :( But, one thing for sure, I have really good impression on him. At least, today aren't so gloomy because of him. Luckily, you are there to cheer up my day a little. xoxo

p/s: be +ve about tommorow. Things aren't that bad afterall... ~~

Mel

You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

Esther: ILU

2009-04-05T15:47:00.004+08:00

Esther, I.L.U.

Esther

My worst nightmare, may have happened. Yesterday my mom called me telling me that Esther is feeling not well recently, and had broguht her to the vet. The vey says that she's a little too old as a dog and she got some antibiotics and medical treatment at the clinic. This whole episode thing happened when my aunt notice Esther "being not ussual". Like, she seems not interested with whatever food we gave, she threw up after she ate the grass that she looked for... I remembered how Scooby died 10 years ago after he got food poisoning.

I really do not dare to think about it. Seriously. I dont dare to even imagine she's not gonna be around soon. Is a matter of sooner or later. I know. But I deny it. I try to give her as much attention as she needed each time I got back my hometown. Well, it may be my sole selfishness to want her to be with me.

Esther, was the first person I told to when I first fall in love back in my high school. She's the first person I turn to when I broke up with the guy that I dated. Well, its 4-day-relationship after all, you may say. But the first one are normally the most painful experience. I remembered I cried quite badly that day, and she just sat beside me. Did nothing, but I know she understands how bad I felt. There's another time when I was so into singing that I made her listen to the songs I sang repeatedly again and again. I wonder did she actually had her ears bled that time. These are just some memories that we shared together. When there's the good side of the memories, there were also the bad ones. I remembered not talking to her after I know she's not a virgin- the reason is because at that time I really treated her like my little sister and it simply doesn't make sense if she got married 1st right? But, yeah. We do fight, Oh well, I do have some cat fights with her sometimes. But mostly, we are really very very close. Since I have no sister...

Something that I do really admire about her is her temparament. She is very cool when it comes to solving problems. Even when other dogs were already barking off their jaws, Esther stayed calm to confirm whether is it really an intruder or just simply a passer by. Esther knew who's our family's friends and welcome them like my family does. Sometimes, she even make friends with them. That really make her outshine from other dogs that I reared.

Well, it has already been 7 years now - keeping Esther around my house. Keep all the snakes, cats, monkeys, rat or birds away. Save and peace one. She's already 14 yeards old now- I guess. Too old to continue to do all these task and chores. Time for her to take a rest. But I really really gonna miss her- so much. Rowen might say that death is just a cycle of the nature. Death may be seen scientifically for him. But, not me at least. There's so many emotional feelings involved. You can't just delete memories like a computer file. Can't you? The only way is I believe really work is "right click and select "time"". Time perhaps will make these memories less clear and be a little more vague. Esther, please be strong for now. I know I could not do anything by now. But, please let me see you, cuddle you one more time when I get back this weekend. Will you? Esther, I Love You. Period.

Esther and My Niece

You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

The Fredo Talk

2009-04-01T20:39:00.004+08:00

The Fredo Talk
a talk about BGR in Guys' perspective

Just got back from library... Recently, I'd spent most of my time in the library - sleeping. This had seriously never happened to me. The ussual me can just study and revise what I learnt attentively in library. But recently, I guess because of that thing. Oh well.. Vic says is normal. And I guess so~

-FREDO- hey.. if anyhow you know this guy, please don't let him know i posted his pict on my blog. :)

Yup yup... this Fredo talk I had this evening was awesome. I somehow get to see different perspective on what guys actually look in girls.

RULE 1:
appearance are important.. Like really really important. I even remember once Jo told me that body comes after brain. So, if anyhow you looked little out of shape... too bad for you. Your chances are slim compared to those have bigger melons or more gorgeous feature. Lo and behold... Don't become sulky of what I'd just say cuz, I'm in the same boat with you. There just as many victims in this boat. Bon voyage! Haha....

RULE 2:
sex comes before love. I don't know how Fredo explain this because its too vague for me to understand his explanation. Well, it happenes at times. LOL. But the main thing is, if they like you, they will imagine having sex with you. Wow.... aren't that scary????
but, Fredo makes me realize one thing. This guy perception thingy changes after some time. You see, not ALL gorgeous girls have gorgeous attitude. We need to understand guys are kinda stubborn species And so, let them play around a while and then settle down.

RULE 3:
betrayal pissed them off. So girls out there, don't wanna being called a slut or whore or bitch, keep your assess clean. Most guys can't forgive if they found out you multidate for whatever reason. :)

RULE 4:
you both have to see things in the same way. I like Fredo's metaphore. You have to see things from the same window or at least same side of a building. Get it? Ok, put it in simpler way. Like both you and your partner have to have the same liking, interest, topic, bla bla bla.... I have to emphasize here that this thing is not about pure tolerance. You see, you have to really have the same liking as he does. Then, you will enjoy the relationship together.

analysis part: i don't know why fredo mention interest as the last rule. but, i guess i get it. physical appearance comes 1st in whatever reason. sex are important for guys too..... The difference older guys and younger... oh well... Fredo called it mature. Okay. Mature guys and less mature guys see sex differently. Mature guys only have sex with people they really really love.

However, I personally think this depends on individual. Some people might simply see their partner or prospective partner in different ways or the other. Well... Now, it makes me wonder what Crown see in girls?? Wonder~ I somehow know, he prefer people who talk only important things and be mysterious. And he also admitted that you can't have both. LOOKS & BRAIN at the same time (although, sometimes you may strike a jackpot or whatever....). But, that doesn't prove anything right??? He might just be the same as Fredo. LOL.. Having sex with Crown. I really can't imagine it. I can think of watching anime, study, playing piano, talking, holding hands with him. BUT Sex? OMG~~

You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

SATISFIED AS I AM

2009-03-27T16:56:00.003+08:00

As Satisfied As I am
Hey peeps. Sorry for my emo posts recently. I really got very emo these days... Partially was because I'm so damned stressed about my assignments (imagine: due in the same day and I'd not done a single shit) and also that stupid crown la. LOL. No worries... I guess I'm better now. Yeah... forget about those crap that I crapped about....

Yup yup, Assignment done; experiment hours completed. So basically I'm rather free now and I had to focus on my finals, colloqium and also dad's catalogue project. If you do know any friends who know anything about photography and graphic design on advertising field, please reccomend to me cz daddy's giving BIG reward~

Main topic begins here: Yup. Satisfied. I'm really very contented now. I'm happy with who I am, my condition..... Recently all the experiment/survey that I particpated generally asked HOW HAPPY ARE YOU? DO YOU SOMETIMES THINK YOU'RE USELESS?. Well, I practically answer all these questions without giving a second thought. YES, I'M VERY HAPPY. I DON'T THINK I'M USELESS OR HELPLESS.

The reason behind this, I started to look at things that I had, things that I tend to ignore all this while. My parents, my little bro, the money my parents gave me, my friends, my roomate... particularly I have everything I had. I started to see things in this perspective nowadays... I don't know why. But I really feel great.

And if someone confronted me and tell me that they are useless and practically they had nothing to be proud of.... I will ask them to think again about themselves. At least, they are alive. They're given chance to live in this world for another day. They may be depressed over what had happened in the past, but they should be proactive about the future that awaits them to make a change!

Wow, I don't know what I become so philosophical recently, but yeah... something to share with you guys. Give that a thought before you start complaining how bad your life WAS. Because what HAPPENED was your PAST. and so, MAKE A CHANGE NOW.

Before I leave today's topic, I wanna say: THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!!!

xoxo
MEL

You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

Experiment Failed

2009-03-25T18:36:00.003+08:00

Experiment Does Not Support Hypothesis

Hypothesis
He luv me
Method
Law of Attraction
Result
In reality he doesn't

Okay, this gonna be brief otherwise I'm gonna screwed up for my two assignment.

Yes, me and sangeetha did an experiment today. Changing our normal seat to somewhere to see whether did he looked at us. Okay, from summary above, you know in the end it didn't. Well well... My reasoning is here: law of attraction may have not start working yet. But its sooooo disturbing to wonder WHO is he keeeeep on looking at (is its not me =C)

You know what, although today I'm super damned depressed (my mood simply changed expotionally), I will continue to check you out just like the nostalgic poem that I posted previously. So what he doesn't like me or even worst know me? I'll continue to just see you from far. Cz the melissa that i am doesn't give up easily.

CROWN, HOW I CAN TELL YOU????

You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

It's been a while...

2009-03-24T18:18:00.002+08:00

It's been a while...
Its been a while since I felt so great
To be in luv
Well, I may not call that to be in love...
But at least you got "motivated"
In a way or the other
I know you don't know my existance
But I will see you from far
Continue to to admire you
Your coolness, your smartness, your... EVERYTHING

Its been a while since I being so happy
To find a person to be so smart like you
Although some times it feel irritating to have someone smarter than me,
But I enjoy the competition
Than you bring in
Thank you

No, I'm not psycho
But, thank you again
I really enjoy to see you from far

It's been a while since I wonder
Wondering whether you felt the same as I am
Sometimes it makes me wanna confess
So that I get the idea
But the conservativeness in me
Pull me back
Thinking of the consequences
Maybe I'm afraid to be rejected
How much I hope you will take the first step
And say the three words eight letter statement...

But really, these feelings....
Has been a while :)

Mel

p/s: how much I hoped he read these.... my confession >< You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

GOSSIP GIRL SEASON FINALE

2009-03-18T22:21:00.004+08:00

WOW.... GOSSIP GIRL IS FANTASTIC. IF YOU'RE LIKE ME A GOSSIP GURL FANATIC FANS AND HAVEN'T GET A GOOD LINK TO WATCH SEASON 2 EPISODE 18, I SUGGEST THIS LINK. IS SUPER DUPPER FAST... http://supernovatube.com/play.php?viewkey=4d46f432efd899e287a2

BTW, DON'T YOU PEOPLE THINK CHUCK BASS IS HOT???? TELL ME HE IS!!! SOOOOOOO SEDUCTIVE....

KAY, GOTTA CHIAO HERE.. I'M RUSHING FOR MY JOURNAL ASSIGNMENTS.

xoxo, you better love me.
MEL

You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

My standards or theirs?

2009-03-15T20:06:00.003+08:00

I have always thought of spent my time doing things that I want to (going to gym, reading books, studying, going shopping alone) or spending time with my friends (watching movie, have a tea together, shopping, chatting, etc). Okay, I know what you may be thinking, but yes, I am an introvert person. This thing had always disturbed me of what should I do? Keeping in touch with friends or spending your quiet time alone? I could never make decision on this. And it REALLY bother me a lot.

my messy little study table. yes, mel is a messy gurl.take it or leave it!

Last week, I have gain many insight on this issue when I got back to my hometown. I actually talked about this to my mom and she consulted my aunt. My aunt told my mom that people who like me, often prefer to spent time doing my own things, organizing things is utilizing my time for the fullest; while people who always spending their time with others is because they do not know what they should do, and as such, they just follow the bandwagon along. (I'm not saying I'm right and people who do so is wrong, my aunt is actually referring me and my another cousin sister)

So true, that these words actually lighten my thinking bulb. Yes, why I should let others decide what I do? Often than not, I feel that it’s a little troublesome to go shopping with your friends (especially those who don't have the same taste as you). You have to wait for them to try out/browse through at shops that you couldn't find any nice clothes; you have to walk the miles to look for clothes for them. Phew! What a time! I don't know how they feel otherwise, but I will definitely get tired about it.

my nail art. okay... i know, it's ugly TOT

Same thing applies to recent issue on deciding whether I should join psychology student council or peer support group. The advantage of being in student council will of course be you will regarded as the "in group" and most people would actually recognize you / respect you, you get to organize many events, you would get to know a lot of new friends. The downturn would be you have to run for a campaign for votes, might not win in the campaign, might not like working with people inside, get too busy and stressed up. As for psg....that is actually a club that I wanna join. You see, I will get to learn alot of things on how to support and motivating others. But the only bad thing about psg is that chances I getting into the committee members would be slim. You were selected by the senior committee rather than popularity. So how's that??

Guess what, in the end, I chose Peer Support Group. What my roommate says is so true. In the end, the one who do all the tasks would be you. Not the people around you. So, you have to really make sure you LIKE what you're doing. So... what I learnt here to BE MYSELF. What are norms? Norms are what majority do. What majority do is not necessarily right. So, set you own norms, do according your standards and be yourself! Go mel!!!!!!!!

Set GOALS:
1. Be an active badminton member
2. Join PSG and be a active member
3. Go for all of their GMs, Events

xoxo
MELISSA
You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

3# Report from China

2008-12-13T01:19:00.008+08:00

Winter, Jin Jiang Hotel; Hunan, Guangzhou.

It was a lazy day after the exhibition that is held in Pazhou two days ago. Wow, its been a long time ever since we woke up at our own pace. After our breakfast, he left 7 Days Inn Hotel and headed to our first stop of the day.

Today I went to Wong Fei Hong's Memorial Park in Foshan. the only tourists' hotspot in Foshan. Haha~ Whichever way, I have a splendid time there today.

We started off with a little bibliography of the Kung Fu Masters like Ip Man, his student Bruce Lee (his original surname wasn't Lee), and etc. Kung Fu was learned by the Chinese for health and defence purpose. Tai Chi is one of its subdivision. Kung Fu was well received by the westerners and was taught throughout the world especially the Caucasian country. Today, over 30 countries practice Kung Fu.

After browsing through the history of martial arts and its disciple, we moved on to visit Wong Fei Hong's residence. Over the years, many films and movie about Wong Fei Hong was screened. However, the media has gave a wrong impression (physically) about him. He's actually not a fit-man as we all thought he is, but...

...a slightly plum person ^^I myself was too surprise to know about this. Lol. Oh yea, Let me tell you some info that I gained about this man. When Fei Hong was 16 years old, he had already started his own martial arts centre to teach Kung Fu. He was indeed a very talented person. Soon, he was recruited by the chinese general to fight against the Japanese. Then, in between I'd forgotten what happen. But in the end, he opened a health centre to take care of the people called "Poh Chi Lam". It was a very successful and that is the time he gained his name.

However, during his late years, "Poh Chi Lam" was burnt down and his son, Wong Hon Xi was killed. Wong Fei Hong died 200 years ago. Sorry, for the not so flowing story. >.<>

Hey, but this not a nutless job at all. I did found nutfull pictures while i'm there... check it out!

1) I almost mistaken this as my bro

2) Erm... I think i can understand this

Beside WFH's house, there is also a temple. A very very old temple. They called it "ancesstoral temple". We went there for a little while to pray and look around and then, we left because we do not have much time to play around with. (Dad has some bussiness to do mah!)

Now, I'd come back to Hunan. Erm, the street that I'm most familiar with in China. And tommorow, my mom's friend will bring us to shop for some "good goods" in China. Actually that's her job; bring people to buy stuff around China. Cool eh? More report from saya tommorow. What time dy... need to sleep liao. Oh yes. If any of you misses me. I'm here. Still so fat and so kiut. Good nite.

You laugh because I'm different...........
I laugh cause I just farted!

2# Report from China

2008-12-12T17:55:00.000+08:00

Winter, 7 Days Inn Hotel, Foshan, Guangzhou.
Hello peoples~ I'm in TOINGKOK (China Mainland) now. Lol. Dumbo! Okay, report from Melissa about my trip today. Overall, I spent most of my whole day in a car all the way looking for this 7 days hotel. Luckily my bum didn't grow any "chong"! Whichever way, I think today's trip is most worthless because most of my day spent in the car to Foshan. Reason I'm here is to see the Wong Fei Hong's house. Haha... this is the place the China's wushu master was born. Wow... so anticipating. ^^ besides, my dad tmr gonna look for one UNCA so treat us some delicious food. This man earns alot of $$. So, my dad say need to come and liok back some $$.
Aiyah! Very disturbing lah. Got one cantonese show going on. Report continue tmr....

p/s: this is yesterday's post. I sonmehow couldn't upload anything. >.<

1# Report from China

2008-12-10T00:44:00.000+08:00

Winter, 13 degrees; Wednesday. Shang Mei Hotel : Baiyun, Guangzhou
CULTURE
I always think China, especially Guangzhou is a cool place. Well, it is still a cool place. But its just not as good as what i always think it was. Hmmm... how should I put it. Culture, i guess. Ppl here are less mannered compared to Malaysia, which I really can adapt to till today. Smoking and spitting are making me so annoyed and fustrated. Hmmm... i guess the nation has just bring themeself down this way. ToT

ECONOMY
More or less, the economy here is heavily affected by the recent US credit crunch. My dad has a trading partner here, and we held a trade fair for these three days. We had actually participating (as buyer) to many trade fair before. But this time is really different. People are lesser compare to previous fairs. Even one of our customer from Canada declined our invitation to come and support us.
NOt long ago, I was intrigue by the CNN's news about the US woman who earns bucks from selling her tresses. I guess, things we just the same over China here. According to my Dad's parter's wife, women who is working her is trying to get pregnant just to keep their jobs in fear that being slashed by their company. I guess China would have the same hard time just like the Americans are going through.

Well, i guess thats all for now. More special report from China in near future~